In Fact, They Never Made 'Em Like Me Before! :)

You'll see this quote in my blog pretty regularly:

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others hearts. You'll blame a new love for things an old love did. You'll fight with your best friend, you'll cry because time is flying by, and you'll eventually lose somebody you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely and love like you've never been hurt… Cause every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

Everyone at some point will let you down. Everyone. Even your mother. The key to that is knowing that you, all on your lonesome, can pick your own self back up and come back, stronger. The key is always stronger. If you didn't learn from the lesson you were just taught, you better get ready to go through it again, at triple the speed with quadruple the consequences, cause it's gonna happen. Quote me on it. The lessons are going to vary, the people will be different every time--even if they remind you of someone from your past, don't ever treat them the same--the weather won't be sunny every day, the rain isn't a guaranteed first kiss sort of thing. Stick to the plan. If you can't manage the courage to do that, step back and re-think it. Don't ever, ever, ever, leave anywhere upset, especially if it's somewhere your loved ones are. Treasure those moments where the children are the highlight. One day, they won't be kids anymore. But above all else. Know that if something is important enough to be in your life, you'll make the time for it, if it's not, then you'll find a way to shrug it off.

We run back to each other when it's convenient. We know that in the end, we're meant for each other but not for right now. So we play these games, act like we're okay when one of us has someone else. When in reality it tears us apart to know that we can be happy with someone else. But it's that slight hope that we will end up together that always keeps us running back for more.

I can pretend all day long that seeing you with someone else won't hurt me. That calling you a douchebag makes me feel better. That I can cut the radio off when that song comes on, or that Monday nights don't suck with out you. Notice I said I can pretend. There is a part of me that begs to just let go, just end all contact and never speak to you again, just because it kills me a little more each time. Then there's the woman my mother and father raised. The one with the Southern charm and  grace that could only be instilled through practice and defeat. I smile when I see you, politely raise my right hand--not the left because that hand reminds me of the ring and broken promises-- and I nod a broken and almost inaudible "hello" in a strong and lady like manner. Thinking all the while you speak your broken introduction you'll be calling me in a few hours, completely unsober,  telling me what a "Good ol' Gal" I am, and that in a perfect world, Someone is going to come and sweep me off my feet, that I'm a beautiful person, inside and out, and one day.. .One day I'll realize that... The truth my dear, is that I refuse to let that happen. Because of you, all the tears, and the trials, and all the laughter and happiness in between, I refuse to let anyone in. The walls the barriers. All because I let myself feel because I trusted you. Trust. We don't want to go there with this one either. We know that deep down, I have the ability, but I know that deep down you did more damage than I'll ever give anyone the opportunity to do again. Period. So I'll continue to smile and give my best to not appear broken all while keeping the conversations as to the point as possible, just know that deep down, I'm conflicted with how I feel about you. Miserably conflicted.

If people sat outside and looked at the stars each night I'll bet they'd live a lot differently.


This is something I do every chance I get. I go out back under the pecan tree, sit on the concrete steps, lean back and clear my mind. To be lost under the stars, to be hit with the reality that we're just one person, in such a big world, it's enough to make someone swimmy headed. Look up and think, or better yet. Look up and try to shut your mind off. Let go of all the what-if's the can's and don't(s) and just stare up. Remember a childhood moment, or a fond memory and pull in as much detail as you can. Weigh a situation out in your life. Either way. I promise you'll find some sort of peace in it. Promise.




We’d never know what’s wrong without the pain. Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same 

It's self explanatory really. You just need to learn to face it one malfunction at a time. Don't sweat what doesn't matter. Don't spend all your time trying to figure out what does matter. Just take it all in stride. Sometimes, when you can't make the call, letting someone else make the decision isn't always what's right, and it damned sure isn't going to feel like it is, but you can do it..... and even if it's not right, and feels like it's the hardest thing to do, something down the road is going to be harder, and you'll already have experience in that department. Won't be too  bad. ;)) Smile. 

 In a world where you can be anything, be yourself.


Depending on someone else to complete you is simply... not worth the wait.
Be you. Always put you in first gear. Without you being in complete control of your own life, how can you help anyone else with anything else to  100% of your capability?  


This is why you should never, ever get your hopes up. This is why you should see the glass as half empty. So when the whole thing spills, you aren't as devastated.

Also, self explanatory. It's called protection of the heart. That's the most valuable possession any one could ever have in their playbook. Your heart. The door to the soul that could make or break any being down to their knees. Remember, when you hit that point, the tears are uncontrollable, the emotions are a river flowing at the rate of mass flooding, it's impossible to feel any emotion out side of fear and hurt, the heart is literally bursting to the beat of every pump when it feels like breaking isn't an option but bursting and relieving pressure is a necessity... That's the point where you have to remember, .... You're on your knees already, BOW YOUR HEAD, and give the problem to God. You're in the perfect position to pray. To those who feel the need to give up, I say, Trust life a little bit. ;))